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yeah. i dont want to leave scott but ive been planning to go

[For... more than one reason, really. The whole situation is complicated now.]

are you?

I don't think so.

[ She had considered it, but with Scott grey and chained (tied, whatever) to a bed and her conversation with Stiles, Allison's thinking it might be best to stay put. Maybe use that time to figure some things out. Or try really, really hard not think about what Stiles said.

Either way. ]

Will you do me a favor while you're over there?

...sure? anything.

[It should be alarming how easy those words are to type, but it isn't.]

what is it?

[ It's that 'anything' that makes her pause a little. Not because it's bad or anything, it's just... Unexpected, maybe. Or maybe she's just reading too much into it because of stupid Stiles. ]

Keep an eye on Stiles while you guys are there. He apparently doesn't care if he ends up getting killed again, but people around him do and I'm worried he's going to do something really reckless.

[ She does. Scott definitely does. Isaac... might? She's honestly not sure about that, but her main concern is Scott; hearing that his best friend died while he was grey would be really hard on him and even if Allison isn't ready to just magically fix everything between her and him, like Stiles wants, she's still worried.

And asking Isaac to do this is still keeping her distance. Right? ]

Edited 2014-01-15 17:52 (UTC)

[There's a long pause before Isaac sends his next message.]

thats... actually the main reason im still going [Surprising as that may be, considering Stiles and Isaac's near-animosity toward one another. Still, considering Isaac's friendship with Scott, perhaps it's not too surprising.]

i told you that scott asked me to protect you and stiles during the frost giant attack right?

[Of course a request like that would have an expiration date, but that's not the point. The point is that he didn't, and no stupid deathday parties would change the fact that Scott had asked him to with his dying breath and he'd failed then.

He's not going to fail now.]

[ And there's an equally long pause on Allison's end. Of course she remembers him telling her that; she remembers that day far, far more vividly than she'd like. She remembers Isaac telling her that Scott was dead, how she broke down in that girl's bathroom, how they fought alongside one another and how Isaac looked at her as she continued shooting that giant full of arrows long after he was dead. She remembers how empty she felt, knowing Scott had died and was trapped in that stupid castle.

How could she forget? ]

Yeah, you told me.

nothing has changed.

[Which is a lie, but not in the context of what he's saying. Things have changed, he sees her so differently now, but the bottom line is that both her and Stiles still have his alliance and protection should they want it- or need it, rather. And right now, as reckless as he is, Isaac is pretty sure that Stiles needs it. He owes it to Scott to try, at least.]

i wasnt fast enough last time and stiles died. i promise im not going to let that happen again

[ She's glad to hear that because she trusts Isaac, but there's one other little concern she's got: ]

Do me another favor? Make sure YOU don't end up dead, either.

i didnt know you cared :)

[Sorry, are we ready for the conversation to do a 180? Either way, Isaac isn't going to miss a chance to try and be lighthearted with her, if he can.

With everything she's going through, he figures that she could use a little cheering up.

~~And maybe a little flirting.~~]

[ sahgjkahgjka Isaac no don't be cute. ]

Of course I care. We're friends, right?

[ That's a sort of "Duh, what do you think friends do?" sort of question as well as one to make sure that they actually are still friends. The conversation at Christmas went far better than she'd expected, but that doesn't mean Isaac isn't upset with her cock-blocking him. He might've just been trying to be nice since it was Christmas. ]

of course

[There's not really a ton of hard feelings there, which is slightly odd- in any other circumstance, Isaac is pretty sure that he'd grow to resent anyone who tried to come between him and someone he likes. But as it is now, he respects her- and staying away from Scott is letting him interact a little more with her. In a way, Isaac feels like he knows Allison even better now that he sort of gets what she sees in their mutual friend.

But Isaac is pretty good at pushing things, and he doesn't exactly want their friendship to taper off or sour just because there were a few embarrassing or awkward things going on. So he pushes.]

you know, i think id have a lot more incentive to bring both stiles and myself home alive if we could get coffee sometime

...by 'we' i mean you and i. without stiles. no stiles at all. i mean aside from the coming back alive. he would come back and then quickly leave and not be there for lattes

[Smooth.]

[Fuck.]

wait did that sound weird? i dont really get how this works im sorry. im not like- it isnt like a thing.

i just dont get to see you often so i thought itd be cool but if its not then its totally fine

[Maybe not so good at pushing things after all.]

[ It definitely, 100% sounded like he was asking her out on a date or something (which, past the shock and awkwardness, deep down, Allison is flattered and would be surprisingly okay with?) so those follow up texts make her feel a little less panicked. Sort of. He seems panicked, which makes them far less helpful in that department, but--

God, boys are so dumb. It definitely doesn't help that she has Stiles' voice in the back of her head telling her how there's ~tension~ between the three of them and how polygamy is a thing. ]

No, it's fine. We haven't really hung out lately and that's partly my fault. I wasn't sure if you'd want to after...

[ Well. He can fill in the blanks there. ]

I'd like that. We can definitely get coffee.

[Well, he definitely wouldn't be opposed to a date, but in that event, he'd have to figure out exactly how to broach the subject of 'I can't go out with you because Allison would be upset so I'm going to go out with her instead' with Scott. And that sort of makes all of this a bit more awkward, but he doesn't care. Preserving their friendship is worth a few moments of embarrassment, isn't it?]

course i want to. if you need space from me too then i get it nbd but

i dunno im just saying

id like it if there wasnt a ton of space

[ Allison wants to believe she's reading too much into this, that the only reason she's wondering if Isaac means that in more than just a friendly way is because of her conversation with Stiles, but... Honestly? She's not so sure anymore. She's definitely, 100%, absolutely certain she doesn't want to know the answer to it just yet, though; the last thing she needs is more stuff to think about. And besides, she - in a round about way - asked Isaac not to date Scott, so what kind of person would she be if she then turned around and dated Isaac?

Assuming she even felt that way about him. She's not sure how she feels about much of anything right now, she just knows that she still wants Isaac in her life. The idea of him being pissed at her after his message was just another crack in her broken heart. So she's going to choose to ignore Stiles' voice in her head, in the uncertainty she now feels about her and Isaac's friendship (more whether either of them would want it to be more), and she's going to be friends with him. Just like before. ]

I just need to focus on myself right now, you know? That's a lot harder to do when you're in a relationship.

[ Especially with the boy your mother tried to kill. Especially with how strong her feelings for Scott are; she can't just let herself hide in him and how he makes her feel because that's not going to allow her to deal with anything. ]

I was also keeping my distance because I wasn't sure how you felt about me, after... You know. The conversation before Christmas.

[Isaac is pretty sure that Allison said that part about relationships as a way to dissuade him from pursuing her or from any wayward thoughts he might have had about the two of them and this- whatever it is. She's making it clear that it's not a date, that they can't be together because she needs to focus on herself- maybe?

Or maybe he's reading way too much into things because he's- because they're sort of in that awkward position right now. It's not that he... maybe he does? Scott seemed to think so, and Isaac knows that she's attractive obviously, knows that he's attracted to her and he wouldn't say no if she did ever want to- just because he probably would date her at the drop of a hat and maybe wants to know more about her and grow closer and it's not like he wants to kiss her or anything, but if she leaned in just right-

-alright, anyway. She's Scott's ex-girlfriend and obviously not interested. That's all.]

hey i meant what i said. its fine. im not gonna be mad at you for being honest with me. youre my friend and i dont want to hurt you

[ Honestly, if Allison was doing it for that reason, it was completely unintentional and subconsciously. She literally just meant it as an explanation for why she wants space from Scott because it's not about not loving him anymore. It's not about feeling like he's responsible for her mom's death - even here, knowing that if her mom hadn't gone after Scott she'd still be alive doesn't have her blaming him at all - and it's certainly not because she wants to be single or wanted to hurt him. It's because she needs to deal with everything, from her mom's death to being manipulated by Gerard, and she isn't so sure she can do that while still dating him.

Especially here. He'd been such a support system for her when Stiles spilled the beans that she knows leaning on him now wouldn't do her any good.

But god, does she miss him. ]

Thanks, Isaac. I really appreciate that. [ And she's incredibly relieved to hear that, too; she needs all the friends she can get, even if she refuses to admit it. ]

I don't want to hurt you, either.

[ A few minutes after that text goes through, Allison forces herself to type out and send another one. Bringing it up is probably a horrible idea, especially since it still hurts her, but she needs to actually say this. Because she wants to be honest with Isaac, and she wants him to know that she understands the sacrifice he made as a favor to her. ]

Which is why I wanted to apologize for basically telling you not to date Scott. I know it's really selfish of me and I shouldn't even have a say in what he does - or what you do, for that matter - but I really appreciate it.

[ She was going to say "But it would be too hard" or something along those lines, but she figures he can piece that part together all on his own. If he couldn't, why would he have backed off? ]

[He's honestly not sure why she's apologizing again. Sure, he's a little bummed about trying to keep his relationship with Scott purely platonic, and yeah it can be a little frustrating when he knows that Scott wants the same thing... but this is Allison they're talking about. Isaac is pretty sure that something between him and Scott would never work when Allison was still in the picture anyway. It's obvious that she's always going to be in Scott's heart, and Isaac really doesn't blame him at all.

She doesn't have to feel bad for what she said. As far as Isaac is concerned, her feelings keep him from Scott every bit as much as his consideration for them. If he didn't care, he'd go for it, but he does. And oddly enough, rather than complicate things, it seems to make everything much easier to grasp.]

you didnt tell me not to do it. i asked if you would be okay with it and you tried to say that it would be fine but i could tell that it would bother you. you tried to be self sacrificing and considerate and i basically saw right through it and tried to be respectful of things that you didnt want to tell me in the first place

that sounds really complicated but its actually pretty simple. you were willing to let me do it because you care about me. i decided not to do it because i care about you. the end decision was mine and you didnt force me to do anything

so dont feel bad anymore okay? please?

[ For the first time since she woke up with memories of home, Allison actually finds herself smiling in a completely, 100%, absolutely true way. And it's not a small one, like she's smiled before, but it's actually fairly wide. She had laughed a little with Scott at the Christmas party and she'd been able to lighten up some with Lydia, but... This feels like a huge step. And there's a twisting in her stomach that reminds her not only of how she's felt numerous times around Scott, but also how she felt when Isaac and her were talking on Christmas. At least when he was complimenting her and embarrassing her.

Thankfully, though, he can't see it because Allison doesn't really want to acknowledge what it means. She just wants to believe that she's thankful they're still friends, that they've come to this point, that they care about each other despite the complications in their lives. That's all she can handle right now. ]

I'll try.

[ Because if there's one thing Allison can't promise, it's that she won't feel bad about something or be too hard on herself. ]

I just wanted to make sure you knew because, like you said, I do care about you. You're my friend and I want you to be happy.

[ And she feels guilty that she's standing in the way, but she's going to try to focus on Isaac saying that it was his choice and he was doing it out of respect for her. ]

But I'll make you a deal; I'll never bring it up again if you buy me lunch to go with that coffee when you get back.

[He can understand what she's saying, even if he doesn't particularly like the fact that his backing down made her feel guilty. Ultimately though, Isaac can't control how Allison feels, even if he wants her to feel better, so he lets it go, grinning when he reads over her deal.]

you drive a hard bargain, argent.

[But not an unreasonable one. Isaac is hardly as broke as he used to be- and even if he was, he'd be able to afford a meal or two. Allison is worth it, anyway.]

but i accept. lunch it is

Great. I can't wait.

[ She types it out and sends it before realizing it sounds a little... Something. More than friendly somehow, though she's probably just over-thinking it. Even though she's trying as hard as she can, she can't shake off what Stiles said. Why did it burrow so deep? Why can't she just forget it?

Despite that, though, Allison doesn't necessarily regret sending it because it's the truth. She is looking forward to lunch with Isaac, and not just because she'll be able to know he made it back safely. ]

Have a safe trip.

[He doesn't know how to take that. Excited for them to have lunch? Definitely just being friendly. Not like she's- she doesn't have time for relationships and frankly, trying to misread all of her texts as flirting is probably a dick move.

So Isaac takes a deep breath and tries to forget about it.]

thanks. see you.

[ Allison isn't even sure how she means it, so she wouldn't blame Isaac for not knowing how to take it if she knew. But she just shoves it aside and tries to focus on the words rather than any hidden meaning behind them - hers or Isaac's - because that never, ever ends well. ]

Yeah.

[ It's a seriously lame ending to their conversation, but she's not really sure what else to say. ]

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