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I think I get it, yeah.

[ And even though he can't see it, there's the tiniest smile gracing her face (for a split second, anyway) because of the fact that he was worried. It's still hard to combine how she felt back home and how she felt here, to put the two together and try to come up with something that makes sense. Honestly, it's hurting her head worse than crying has. ]

I don't blame you for the way you behaved when you first got here, either. I think I still kind of did before.

[ Sort of. At least on some level, though it clearly wasn't a large enough one to impact their friendship. Which should be obvious considering the fact that she's not only talking to him now but also apologized.

Also, admitting that? Way easier than admitting to anything else she's feeling. Like how confused and rattled and scared and completely heartbroken she is. How desperately she needs a friend to lean on, especially with Lydia and Jackson gone. ]

[Isaac isn't surprised that she'd held his behavior against him- he'd acted like a dick, plain and simple. At the time, he thought she'd deserved it, that he was in the right, but then... Isaac never really apologized for being cruel to her, did he? He never felt the need to before, not when things segued into a casual friendship and, gradually, a closer one.

So he leaves the text box blank for a few minutes before carefully typing out his next response, because apologies don't necessarily come easy to him either, and it's difficult to admit that he'd been wrong when he thought he was acting for his own survival.]

i guess i wasnt the nicest guy in town to you. which wasnt really... fair of me? yeah.

im sorry for that by the way. i can get pretty defensive but- well i guess you know. its in your familys code right?

[Hunting those who hunt you... it's not just a hunter's catchphrase, not really. It's the concept of self defense, of survival. And if Isaac is good at anything, he's good at surviving. Even if that means that he hurts others around him.]

[ Allison lets out a quiet sound - something that's partially laughter and partially strangled heartache - when he mentions the code. Which is exactly why she went with text. (There's also the fact that she's pretty sure she never would've been able to say this; text is easier. Plus, she can take her time and actually think about what she's going to stay rather than just blurting it out or feeling pressured to respond quickly.) ]

Basically, yeah. Even if it wasn't, I'm pretty sure it's just human nature.

[ The basic instinct is to protect oneself, no matter the enemy, right? ]

thats true

but yeah. no hard feelings. i wasnt exactly the most friendly person after derek turned me anyway.

[Which is about as close as Isaac will get to saying 'I was a royal dick', but hey. And it takes a long few moments before he decides to continue. He's never quite regretted talking about the hard stuff with Allison before- they're similar in the strangest of ways, and there's some small part of him which thinks that Allison probably understands who he is more than Derek, or even Scott.]

its just been a huge change. for all of us i mean. weve lost parents and friends and weve been used and hurt. things... well they suck. if i blame you for what you did back then, then i think id have to really look at what i did after my dad died. i dont wanna do that

so. for the sake of ease... do you think we can go back to the way we were before? in the city i mean. i kind of liked being friends with you

[ Allison's friends with Jackson Whittemore; she's good at reading between the lines and figuring out what people mean when they say certain things. But just the fact that Isaac's admitting to it and apologizing as well... It means more than Allison could probably say. Especially since she still feels the weight of guilt on her shoulders, despite Isaac's acceptance of her own apology.

She definitely agrees with that second part, too, but the third is more important to address. ]

I'd really like to try, but... Things are different now. I'M different now. So I don't know if we even can go back to the way it was.

[ After she sends that, Allison quickly follows it up with another text: ]

I still consider you my friend, I just don't want to make promises I can't keep. With everything that happened back home and with everything that's going to happen here, it's not going to be the same as it was. Do you get what I mean?

[ She doesn't want him to just expect things to be absolutely 100% exactly how they were; their friendship will likely end up changing slightly, at least on her end, because Allison has changed. But that doesn't change the fact that she trusts him, that she cares about him, that she wants to continue having him in her life to see where it leads. ]

[He shouldn't take that as a blow, but he does. Allison is more than likely already breaking it off with Scott, so really, Isaac shouldn't be surprised that she wants to change their relationship as well. The second text helps to ease the sudden hurt, but he's still nervous, unsure of what she means or what this is going to entail.

She says it's not going to be the same. He doesn't know how to take that.]

right. yeah its fine.

i guess ill see you when i see you then?

[He doesn't want to take it as ending their friendship, but from how it reads, it just seems like Allison is trying to let him down easy. And he can understand that- really, he can. It's just... not really what he was hoping for.]

[ It's far, far less about that - she'll do what she can to save their friendship - and more about she's not sure how to keep things the way they were with how completely broken she feels. She has changed, whether she wanted to or not, and that will change things between them. She's not sure how, but she knows it's inevitable. One person can't go through what she's gone through and stay the light-hearted, happy person she had been. And maybe that won't bother Isaac, maybe he won't even notice much of a difference in her or their friendship, but she will. ]

Maybe we can get lunch in a couple days? I just need time to get my bearings.

[ Time to grieve, actually, but. ]

[He takes a deep breath and reads her text, his lips pursed a little- but that makes things a bit better. At least with this, he knows that Allison still wants to see him again. He'll have to take that for what it's worth.]

yeah of course. let me know whenever youre ready. its not like im doing much in the meantime

Edited 2013-12-14 04:20 (UTC)

[ The fact that he's letting her do this at her pace is very, very much appreciated. Especially since she didn't even really have to ask. ]

I will.

Thanks, Isaac.

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