[ and to think derek had never thought to ask. whenever he'd asked, and rare and it had been, if isaac was alright, it had always been about the moment. not something else, anything else that might have been bothering the beta. he'd never thought that he could have learned something about back home which would be so damaging, but it all makes sense now...

his voice is firm then, demanding that isaac understand what he says to him. ]

I kicked you out because the alpha pack wanted me to kill you.

[ and had succeeded as far as boyd went. it won't make up for how derek's treated isaac here, it's not an excuse, but it is the truth of what had happened back home. ]

Your anger was better than you being dead.

[ even here though, no matter how disappointed both erica and isaac might be with him, it'll always be better than having their blood on his hands. he knows he can't avoid that back home now -- erica's death is in the past -- but he can try to prevent needless deaths here, still. and sometimes that means being out of the picture himself. ]

So you see, it was never about you not being useful, Isaac.