[ he could lie. part of him wants to, to make himself look better; to make it less humiliating for isaac, maybe. because back then, he honestly didn't care – he didn't regret doing nothing, didn't feel sorry for isaac. even now that everything's different, it'd be bullshit to say he dwells on it. there's too much else stacked up for it to win out, and he knows on some level that that in itself is shitty.
isaac said it himself: jackson's fucked up. there's no point in lying. ]
Because you were nothing. Because everyone has problems and expecting someone to come in and save you is for children. Because I'm not responsible for anyone.
[ the mirroring of isaac's phrasing could probably be taken as a petty dig, but it rings more hollow. jackson doesn't mean it now. he doesn't particularly care about isaac; he doesn't really care about any of them, despite everything, but he doesn't hate them. he never did, even when it was all hitting the fan, with the kidnappings and the accusations – maybe because he knew they were right, vehement denial aside. he's also not oblivious to the fact that he owes them.
what it all comes down to is that jackson knows he can't fix any of it. maybe he wouldn't even if he could. the best he can do is not make it worse, and he's done a pretty shitty job of that since getting here. he's not the better man, probably won’t ever be capable of coming close to it, so ditching had been the best option. it might've actually worked if he hadn't been dragged here. ]
text this was the worst idea also how extreme can my bracket-to-text ratio get
isaac said it himself: jackson's fucked up. there's no point in lying. ]
Because you were nothing. Because everyone has problems and expecting someone to come in and save you is for children. Because I'm not responsible for anyone.
[ the mirroring of isaac's phrasing could probably be taken as a petty dig, but it rings more hollow. jackson doesn't mean it now. he doesn't particularly care about isaac; he doesn't really care about any of them, despite everything, but he doesn't hate them. he never did, even when it was all hitting the fan, with the kidnappings and the accusations – maybe because he knew they were right, vehement denial aside. he's also not oblivious to the fact that he owes them.
what it all comes down to is that jackson knows he can't fix any of it. maybe he wouldn't even if he could. the best he can do is not make it worse, and he's done a pretty shitty job of that since getting here. he's not the better man, probably won’t ever be capable of coming close to it, so ditching had been the best option. it might've actually worked if he hadn't been dragged here. ]